International mail ;-)

Hi MM,

Good to hear from you!

Yes I am living far away from my parents, but I am enjoying it because all my years I have lived with them & one should face all situations of the life, They will not be there with me always. Some years later I will be a mother too, but I believe your love should not be a shackle for your children, I love my parents & their love is there in my heart. You know in India we give much repect to our relations. Even arguing your parents is considered as a work of spoilt baby.
You know in india Love marriages are still not easy, suppose boy's & girl's families are not happy, they can even sacrifice their love or they will first wait for their family's consent & then will marry, else will never marry.( In many of the cases, some are exceptional too. I am not saying each indian is like that, all countries have good & bad people)


I googled your place, I could see it :-)


I don't know how I missed your mail? Sorry for the late response, you are always welcome.

& yes travelling by bus is a nightmare, india is having world's IInd largest population & middle class people go to their workplace by buses only , I am fortunate enough I use office cab. Yes I competes my graduation in Electronics & Communication engineering.( Please don't ask Engineering questions :-))

Bye & take care



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From: MM


I was just wondering how far you live from where you work and I understand you catch a bus. Isn’t it nighttime there? Do you still live with your parents? Did you have a college education? If you want to see where I live you can Google my address and see my little house, my address is 3101 Duncan; St. Joseph, MO 64507. I live about 15 minutes from work and have a car. I take my daughter (13) to school and then come to work so it takes me about 15-20 minutes to get here in the morning. St. Joseph is about 76,000 people and we have Missouri Western State University here which is less than 5 minutes from work which is why I can attend classes during the day. Our address here at Sara Lee is 5807 Mitchell Avenue, St. Joseph, MO which you could probably Google also, never have but it might show you the plant that we work.

Alright that’s enough question for now, I’ll inquire with you more later. If you don’t want to answer any of the questions you don’t have to I just like to have some background and be nosy. LOL that’s probably the only shortcut language I know. Have a nice evening! mm

Happy Women's Day!!! :-)

Is it Happy women's day or "Happy" women's day, i mean those women who are happy???

Okay lets ponder deeply over it, Is merely celebrating this day, will make a women happy? Is the world giving a women all pride, she deserves?
Yesterday, my sister told be an instance about a working women who was posted in a village. "She used to live alone there & her relatives too used to visit her less often, now each night men used to make a queue outside her room, they used to follow her, used to knock the door , used to comment her."
This put me into a thought, how miserable a women is, in India."Happy Women Day!"

Another instance, In a news, two days back, a 9 yrs old girl was raped & assaulted atop the terrace in a police colony.
So you see these culprits don't even bother about a female's age."Happy Women Day!"

I recently read an article too, stating - "Men staring a woman chest, increases their heart beat & is a good exercise & good for there health",( Ok! Now I got, behind every healthy man there is a healthy woman- Great Idea! I will advice them a more accessible way of doing this

They should always keep their Mother along with them, i mean if they want to stay healthy)


Please STOP doing all this drama of making women happy! We want respect for 365 days, a single day can never make us Happy........

"Mat ched kisi aurat ko, bada paap hoga,
yaad rakh tu bhi ek din, kisi beti ka baap hoga"

My Letter to you

Your soul is not deprived dear.....Our soul is deprived....I am sorry I hurt you a lot coz I was disturbed.



You don't loose your hope, you are my strength.

I wanted to say one more thing, I had many crushes in my life( or you can say I had many Loves), but no one ever loved me, or if loved, never showed me,( Or I didn't let them do that)

But first time I loved someone & is loved as well. So I don't want to lose you.

I agree that their should be no expectation in love, but hope should be there. Aakhir dono hi "Umeed" ka dusra naam h.

I don't know ye expectation h ya hope, par h koi Umeed.

I remember that day, when your parents denied our relationship, I could see you lost 100% of your battle , & today when my parents are showing SIGN of deniel you lost 90% of you battle.

I don't know If I am a week person who is lost battle after thinking of life after 10 Jaunary, or you who has put down the weapons before it.

I will fight it till 10 january, because I respect myself & I respect my Love. Perhaps you would be more happy with your spouse & with your kids in a small house somewhere close to heaven. Possibly I will be more happy after marrying a handsome & mannered guy & living a bindaas life.

But I will have that sense of realization that I fought our battle my first Love battle( which might have given me a complex life, unfaded memories, unending unconsious dreams) with my true tears & my full madness at least.Try to Fail but don't Fail to Try.

A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave.


True Love is a feeling which is considered a sacred & not everyone in this world is blessed with it, everytime. & God has chosen us to be blessed with it. We should not let ourselves to turn it into a curse.


Yours I
31/12/2009

Emotional Foolish!!

They are those people who, in spite of knowing that others are using them, don't resist them from doing so.

They are people who slap themselves for others mistakes.

They are the people who don't respect themselves as well as let others to insult them.

One of there common characteristics is that you will always find them crying or in deep thought.

So they are most of the time seem like a typhoid patient with conjunctivitis.

They, sometimes, behaves like a psycho. They will laugh while crying & again burst into tearful laugh & watch themselves crying into the mirror, then they will stop & get lost in their own eyes.

They will usually stare outside the window in the dark without any thought in the mind.

They will look above to sky with deep sigh to have God, mercy on their pitiful condition.

They will stop laughing midst a fun because they think they are sad people & hence maintain the dignity of being sad.

Also they will talk to themselves if they would find nobody around them.

Well, research is still going on. We will discuss more about them in our coming posts. Till then buh-bye :)

New life :-)

It is the first time I am living my life at the fullest. I always dreamt of living away from the my family( It's not like that I am fed up of them or want to run away), with some good friends, having a good job :-)

Let me introduce you with my PG mates.

1) Sumi (Chumita)

2) Shilpi ( Chilpu)

3) Ruchi ( Luchi)

4) Noopur (Nupri)

5) Swati ( Swati- well she doesn't have her nickname, coz she is married now ( Out of our category of girls|lolz!!)

6) Me ( Nithodi)

7) Bhawna ( she is an Exception ;-) )

I was never aware that there can be any such life with full of happiness, joy, celebration & laughs.

I love to be with them, when I come back to my PG, I feel like home.You know what's happening right now,hmmm...we are celebrating our weekend, at this point of time (1:30am) we are enjoying Tea & Pakodas & after that we will be watching a movie.

The life has completely changed from books, tensions, Viva-voce, exams, assignments, full attendance etc etc to Just casuals, movies, novels, window shopping, Pizza huts.....

I am enjoying it very much & I am very happy!!! :) :) :)

I can never write!!!!

WHY???

I don't know why I share my feelings when I am in blue mood......

well, It's raining outside in the dark amidst the night, again I am sitting lonely & thinking something.

Sometimes it feels as if why god is always doing this to me only???why someone loves somebody so much with the core of heart, despite knowing that that person is only playing with your emotions. why he do that to you,which he doesn't wish to happen with himself?? why someone don't want to understand you, & expect to get himself understood?? why there is so much of difference??? why I feel he will come for me one day, when I know he'll never???why this heart waits for him, why??? is it because I am hopeful or I am a foolish, an emotional foolish?? why I am wiping my tears whole night for the one who has given me that salty water??? why my heart is lying to himself??? why my eyes see his dreams every night, when I know these are going to be shattered one day??? why there is a smile to talk about him, why there are tears to think about him???why a lie is always sweet & why a truth is always bitter???Why I am writing this, deceiving my eyes from sleep, when I know this is not going to end???why there are so many questions in my heart, when I know there are no answers to them???

Dont do it

Dont say hello when you mean good bye,

dont say its the truth when its the lie.

Dont hold my hand when you really wanna let go,

dont say you have matured when you did not grow,

dont hug me when you really wanna beat me,

dont say you read me like a book when you cant even see,

dont say you love me when you really loathe me,

dont say you wanna be there but you never cared,

dont come to my funeral say I’ll be missed,

when all you feel when im dead is nothing but bliss,

dont worry I wont be there,

I know dont care so now its fair,

Live on your life while I end mine,

dont you worry about me in the dark because im never fine.

I know you never loved me it was too good to be true,

As yours was never there as mine grew.

I’ll find a way to make you smile,

even if im dead or gone for a while.

I wish it never dawns, I wish It keep raining to give me company.God pls listen to me this time.