Emotional Foolish!!

They are those people who, in spite of knowing that others are using them, don't resist them from doing so.

They are people who slap themselves for others mistakes.

They are the people who don't respect themselves as well as let others to insult them.

One of there common characteristics is that you will always find them crying or in deep thought.

So they are most of the time seem like a typhoid patient with conjunctivitis.

They, sometimes, behaves like a psycho. They will laugh while crying & again burst into tearful laugh & watch themselves crying into the mirror, then they will stop & get lost in their own eyes.

They will usually stare outside the window in the dark without any thought in the mind.

They will look above to sky with deep sigh to have God, mercy on their pitiful condition.

They will stop laughing midst a fun because they think they are sad people & hence maintain the dignity of being sad.

Also they will talk to themselves if they would find nobody around them.

Well, research is still going on. We will discuss more about them in our coming posts. Till then buh-bye :)

New life :-)

It is the first time I am living my life at the fullest. I always dreamt of living away from the my family( It's not like that I am fed up of them or want to run away), with some good friends, having a good job :-)

Let me introduce you with my PG mates.

1) Sumi (Chumita)

2) Shilpi ( Chilpu)

3) Ruchi ( Luchi)

4) Noopur (Nupri)

5) Swati ( Swati- well she doesn't have her nickname, coz she is married now ( Out of our category of girls|lolz!!)

6) Me ( Nithodi)

7) Bhawna ( she is an Exception ;-) )

I was never aware that there can be any such life with full of happiness, joy, celebration & laughs.

I love to be with them, when I come back to my PG, I feel like home.You know what's happening right now,hmmm...we are celebrating our weekend, at this point of time (1:30am) we are enjoying Tea & Pakodas & after that we will be watching a movie.

The life has completely changed from books, tensions, Viva-voce, exams, assignments, full attendance etc etc to Just casuals, movies, novels, window shopping, Pizza huts.....

I am enjoying it very much & I am very happy!!! :) :) :)

I can never write!!!!

WHY???

I don't know why I share my feelings when I am in blue mood......

well, It's raining outside in the dark amidst the night, again I am sitting lonely & thinking something.

Sometimes it feels as if why god is always doing this to me only???why someone loves somebody so much with the core of heart, despite knowing that that person is only playing with your emotions. why he do that to you,which he doesn't wish to happen with himself?? why someone don't want to understand you, & expect to get himself understood?? why there is so much of difference??? why I feel he will come for me one day, when I know he'll never???why this heart waits for him, why??? is it because I am hopeful or I am a foolish, an emotional foolish?? why I am wiping my tears whole night for the one who has given me that salty water??? why my heart is lying to himself??? why my eyes see his dreams every night, when I know these are going to be shattered one day??? why there is a smile to talk about him, why there are tears to think about him???why a lie is always sweet & why a truth is always bitter???Why I am writing this, deceiving my eyes from sleep, when I know this is not going to end???why there are so many questions in my heart, when I know there are no answers to them???

Dont do it

Dont say hello when you mean good bye,

dont say its the truth when its the lie.

Dont hold my hand when you really wanna let go,

dont say you have matured when you did not grow,

dont hug me when you really wanna beat me,

dont say you read me like a book when you cant even see,

dont say you love me when you really loathe me,

dont say you wanna be there but you never cared,

dont come to my funeral say I’ll be missed,

when all you feel when im dead is nothing but bliss,

dont worry I wont be there,

I know dont care so now its fair,

Live on your life while I end mine,

dont you worry about me in the dark because im never fine.

I know you never loved me it was too good to be true,

As yours was never there as mine grew.

I’ll find a way to make you smile,

even if im dead or gone for a while.

I wish it never dawns, I wish It keep raining to give me company.God pls listen to me this time.

24 feb'09

ya 24th Feb 2009.....was the night, i was waiting for my love(cum hubby) to celebrate "sweet day" with.

Lemme xplain u first wot dis sweet day means...it is a day for couples to share something sweet with each other, including sweet memories...yes,only Sweet!!!

But unfortunately, he was abducted by some mischievous ppl.I was waiting for him whole day long.He was totured by them ,criss crossed by electric wires, & was hung from the ceiling..Atlast I found him..& helped him rescued.
You might be thinking how we did it??...ummmm...we did it by hiding ourselves at the enemy's camp itself ,when those poor ppl came to knw bout our fled...they sat out to chase us...but all efforts in vein. Finally they took advantage of my innocent 'bittu'....yes,bittu is my son...forgot to mention bout him in the begining. Those beasts asked him to tell our whereabouts...& he did.

As they came back to their camps...we ran like anything...Suddenly Satish kaushik came & handed over his Honda's key.....& that's how our story had happy ending....!!!!

............................and i woke up.... [:P]

AS/400.....

PGM
I am writing this post to share my training period with u ppl. I am undergoing training at silverlake, bangalore......We r total 13 ppl(unlucky num!) including only 3 girls(lucky num!). I, Megha n Deepa. Megha is now one of my good friend & my busmate too. Regarding Deepa, she is a very Simple girl & a great scholar(cleared JMET........WOW!!!).

Hari n Pradeep r other two batchmates.

Pradeep is my immediate neighbour n hari sits next to him.Both r just opposite to each other, If hari , on one hand, a quite n calm boy, Pradeep is talkative n a naughty boy, on the other. Hari is my 'muh-bola bhaai' & pradeep is my' muh-bola dushman'. All the time he is disturbing me, asking me to leave my chair to let him pass. Frequency of this thing is about 45 times a day(oops!there's a hyphen b/w 4 n 5).He always disturbs me n take advantage of me not knowing his language.Yesterday only i had huge fight wid pradeep...we punched each other n den dint talk ......But today He came..& said"Hi!".....i just smiled & replied 'HI'....after dat, evrythng was back to normal to become abnormal again.

Now comes the turn of 'Humare batch k do anmol ratan' ,Ratan & Ankit.Both r vry innovative. It was their !dear to play online games in the class(Warcraft....I hope i name it right!).They take n enjoy break together(Dostana effect....Don't mind!If u hv it.)

Another guy is Prashant, All i know about him is that- He is 'Late comer' & 'Soon Goer'.

Rest of da ppl r not so much known to me.

Amit Dimri is our facilitator's name.....he is really a good instructor!!! He pays attention to each n every student. He gives full time to class n is punctual , he nvr minds repeating things thousand times......dats how we all get time for chatting................

ENDPGM

Inside, Outside

Hello friends,
Well i am new in this 'blog world', & completely untouched & unaware of it ,but i am happier to be a part of it. Writing was always a hobby for me, but i couldn't convert it into a skill , or you can say i never got that platform.

You might be thinking, why i am blogging now?.....well these days i am having many such friends outside & many 'such' ideas inside, who always inspire me to bring my inside, outside.

This post was just a rehearsal for my further posts.